Castle of Frozen Rain

Hey. I’m back from vacationing in Genting! Nothing much there. But so many people there! So crowded! Sheesh! We have to wait for 45 mins for every ride at the outdoor theme park. What a complete waste of time! And em i have updated some pics on my Flickr account. If you want to see the pics just click the link the right of your screen. And i’ve just been really bored at home. Ok. Here’s another poem i wrote about the same time when i wrote "My Confession". You might think the ending is a little weird but i left it like that for you to guess who is it that called out to her. Was it Jamie? Was it her parents? Her friends? It’s up to you to decide the ending.

My Suicide

Jamie said he fell in love

With this amazing girl

He praised her beauty

And her wonderful attitude

He said she was lovely

And I should meet her one day

I just nodded to agree

But regretted in dismay

He said they are going on a date

Maybe on this Friday

“Why so soon?” I simply said

He replied, “I miss her so much, I’d die!”

I walked back home from school alone

Ever since Jamie fell deeply in love

I was lonely with all my friends

Even if Jamie was really there

But with his new girlfriend by his side

I felt jealousy boiling inside

Why was I so stupid all this while?

Having a crush on my best friend in silence

I should have told him from the start

But I was afraid of falling apart

If he wanted to end our friendship

Because I demanded another kind of friendship

Now it’s too late for me

Jamie’s heart is no longer with me

He is now flying freely like a bird

Yet, I’m not letting myself move forward

Because I’m so deeply hurt

I lost my one and only love

The true meaning of my life

Now I’m not worth anything

So maybe I should die

As I sit in my little room

In solitude I cry

And I hold tightly the sharp knife

I think of the pain Jamie gave me

Thinking it’s greater than if I die in pain

I place the knife on my neck and press it

My blood is pouring down like rain

I’m not sure if I’m conscious as I lay on the floor

I listen as there is a faint knock on the door

“Janet, I love you!” are the last words before

I can breathe no more.

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