Castle of Frozen Rain

Family. We dont get to choose them, hell we dont get to leave them as well. We are forever tied to this endless web of bloodline that can never be severed. This is especially true in the case of the nucleus family.

I’ve gone through myself some ups and downs that I figured is inevitable in a family, rough times that comes in a package with family. Everyone has problems in their families right? No single person in this world is perfect and family, therefore is not perfect either, or at least I assumed it isn’t and that it’s ok to be imperfect.

I wouldn’t exactly say I am an angel of any sort - and I’m sure my friends would agree as well - so I have to admit that I, a number of times, have been the source arguments that happened. I like to put it as a phase that "we"(only if you associate yourself with my statement) have to go through. I blame it on all the extra energy that comes with being a teenager. All the angst and rage hidden underneath a bubble that is just waiting to explode.

What matters is where you aim your burst of energy at. Some of us have very good control of ourselves and our emotions and therefore can avoid most confrontations especially with our siblings and parents. Others, like myself, let our anger take control and let ourselves loose like mad dogs barking at anything in sight.

I, to some extent, confess that I am an open person. I do not completely agree on exposing family problems and flaws publicly, but I feel that there is no shame in doing so if a family is facing serious problems that cannot be solved itself. Maybe it’s a way for someone to open up and let out some frustration that’s bottling up inside. When you are at war with your family, certainly you will need alliance outside your family to help you.

But why is it so hard for us to open up? Some of us might not have the right person to open up to. We are afraid of friends judging…then we are left with no one else. Also we do not want to bother others with our mundane problems. So we hide. In our rooms and expressed sorrow to our trustworthy diaries(if you have one).

In whatever problem we may face, I personally think self-control is of utmost importance. Maybe it’s because I myself am guilty of being such a hard-headed person who lets my blood boil so easily. I am sincerely experiencing less rage within myself when face with confrontations(really?). I think. Anyway, I hope I do calm down and have more self control. HOPEFULLY. PLEASE. ZEN. PEACE. (having my hippie moment)

What I am experiencing now is watching my brother let himself loose and attacking everyone in the family especially my mum(and I). I felt enormously pity for my mum who has to go through much mouth-bashing from my sister, brother and myself. Though I have to say, my brother will be the most difficult she ever has to face. He is only turning 15 and will years ahead of him before his teenage angst starts to simmer down. He is SO annoying. And disrespectful. And naughty. And hard-headed. And lazy. And messy. And I can go on forever about his flaws…(it’s very human to see flaws in others but not necessarily ourselves).

Is it really ok to accept a person as he or she is? Moderation is key and as human beings, we need to ACCEPT the GOOD and try to ELIMINATE the BAD. So, if you do see your friends behaving in a BAD way, choose not to accept it. Request that he change for the better for the sake of mankind. That sounds dramatic (-___-”)   Ofcourse the easier way to do this is to point out POLITELY to your friend what you think is his/her bad characteristic and discuss how he/she can change as a better person. Ofcourse again, it’s easier said than done. I, for one, have NOT practice what I preached. Shame on you, Kat.

So what’s the point of all this? Well, I don’t really know. (-____-")

This is just my lament and views. If you agree, drop a comment. Or you can comment me on how I can improve myself to be a better person. Everyone will change right? Why not for the better? J

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